ive been skating 4 miles a day for the last week. theres a new bike path near my home and it makes it really easy to get a quick exercise in. ive already lost 4 pounds. every saturday i play hockey in hollywood with a bunch of dudes that have been ritualistically showing up for the better part of 12 years. i think ive been there for about 6 now. i used to make a living as a skate instructor, stunt performer, and general jack of all skate trades. but although im decent at hockey i never really shined. until recently. it happened for the first time a few months ago. i started scoring like crazy and it felt great. it all had to do with wanting it and not being afraid to take it. i used to think i just wasnt in good enough shape to keep up. instead i realize now that my mind just wouldnt let me move forward. its pretty amazing how powerful the mind is. nothing has changed about me physically. ive always been a really good skater but i just didnt make it happen out on the asphalt on saturdays. last saturday i scored 3 goals and had 4 assists. and the goals were pretty. one tip in skating full speed to the goal. another a one timer, blind and coming from behind the goal. i never even saw the ball, just the motion of my teammate passing it my way. and the last goal won our last game, pulled a move, got it past their defense man, just enough time to backhand it in.
all my life ive wanted to be powerful enough to change in an instant. to recognize a problem and make a decision and stick to it. until this week i had never been able to accomplish that. it always took weeks, months or more likely years. it feels good to absolute. to be sure. unwaivering. it feels like home.
